Beau Unmasked
In this response to our song, I Wear The Mask, Beau muses over the path she has walked so far and the choices Molly has left her with.
Lyrics:
BEAU:
Ever since I was a child, I wasn’t wanted
Sought my father’s eye
And fought him to arrive where I was wanted
By the law and by
A woman who defined all that I wanted
My partner in crime
He crushed her life when we were caught and
Maybe that is why
I hustle toward the goal
Of wrestling control
Back from the imbeciles who show that
Those below them are their doormats
By the nascent use of tyranny
Of hate, abuse, and bigotry
The surest way you’re losing me
Is choosing your hypocrisy
See, “All the world’s a stage,”
And life is just a masquerade
The players have their ways
Of painting on a passing face
But take a look backstage
They’re facing frantic costume changes
So, the name of the game is
Makin’ their nakedness famous
Finding connections
I live and breathe in secrecy
A head full of questions,
‘Cause knowledge is my currency
I’m learning my lessons
Like how you gonna unmask me?
You want me to crack, I’m sending it back,
like Agatha’s magic, I’m the one doin’ the askin’
Hide it away!
Don’t show your weakness
Who can say
If I am honest?
The key to my ascendancy
Is mastering opacity
It’s diggin’ more dirt on you
Than you can stick on me
So I wear a mask
Hidden in plain view
What you ask
I’ll just turn back on you
So I wear the mask...
Wait
Wait -
Does this mean?
Could it be that
In all of my schemin’ and dreamin’ of
finally bringin’ the heat to the man
Am I just mannin’ up?
I mean, I’m gainin’ esteem and I’m fleein’
the scene when the bleedin’ has come from my hand
The way it’s standin’ up it seems
The closer I get to my goal
The more collateral I’m leavin’
Am I really bringing freedom
Or becoming the demon I wanna see defeated?
It’s hittin’ me ‘cuz
Molly was never a votary of authority
Or me
Is that connected?
‘Cuz looking at him I see my
Knack to attack the bourgeoisie
Wholly reflected
But while I keep myself inside
Molly would open wide
Every single time
Woven in his lies
Were more sides than a cat’s lives
And more faces than a freakin’ dodecahedron
So manipulative!
Drivin’ me insane
Tryna find his game
Tryna figure why he’s so secretive?
Sussing out the long range plan
Of the long reign man
Took me so long to understand
He only had two aims:
To give the people chaos they wanna see
And making Molly’s mockery of those who
try to pin him down
That’s how he tackled every single town
And as we traveled, joy would follow him around
I kinda want that
Do y’all remember he said
He left every town better than he found it?
He was arrogant, but he was right
Even in his scams, he made people feel good or special
I’ve deliberately left places worse because
I felt like it
Because I could
And I’m not doing that again.
I’m gonna take baby steps toward the whole
“leaving the town better” thing
It’s the least I can do for him
I gotta start choosing who I focus on taking down
And I’m coming for you, Lorenzo
Cuz I feel like I
Wanna leave a better world behind, he
Fought to leave a better dream behind and
Called us out when we were all disguised
Taught us to preserve the good inside, and
Watchin’ him I think I’ve changed my mind, like
All this time I’ve just been running blind, I
Gotta leave a better world behind, I-
MOLLY:
I got to leave a better world behind